One year ago, August 17th, we said goodbye to our son for the second and final time.
Our friends and family surrounded us as we faced the second hardest day of our life. The outpouring of love and support given to our family at this time was truly amazing, and I am forever grateful. I am grateful that we were not the only ones standing there brokenhearted. My heart was touched by the love shown for Silas and for us. We were not alone in our grief, and we still aren’t.
I still don’t understand why one so precious had to leave so quickly, so suddenly, but I do know this: The hearts that shattered the day he died bonded the broken pieces together in love and sorrow for our family. People are capable of great love and compassion in times of tragedy, and it is one way in which beauty can rise from the ashes.
In the days leading up to his funeral, God brought to mind the blessings Silas had brought to my life. I couldn’t believe I could see the good in the midst of intense grief. Each blessing proved to me that the pain of losing him was worth the blessing of having him, and my love for Silas grew even more.
As our friends and family came through the visitation line during the hour before Silas’ funeral, I could see the pain and grief in their eyes and in their tears. They tried to keep their tears at bay for my sake, but how can you when you see a mother and father standing there without their child? They were absolutely devastated for us. I just had to share why we were so blessed to be Silas’ parents. Their tears gave me the courage to stand and speak for my baby. Below is the video of my words for my baby boy.
the one(s) i carry in my heart 